Restoration I seek from you oh God.
For you are my strong tower
and correcting rod.
Replenish this agonizing soul,
for You are the one who upholds.
Sometimes I feel so dirty,
as I scrub my skin at night,
constantly scraping my flesh
as if it cleanses me and keeps me from strife.
Forgiveness You have given me,
but I need your psychiatry
and healing therapy
to relieve the trauma
incurred inside of me.
Refiner’s fires purge me
of all unrighteousness and iniquity,
for it torments me.
I have replayed the events
like a jury reviews evidence.
The nights of loneliness
brought on by betrayal,
the ultimate executioner of bondedness,
has sapped my strength
and negated my trust in goodness.
Restorer of my soul,
past, present, and future –
I need those still waters
to walk the path of righteousness.
Rescue me from
the mental anguish
of fractured promises never fulfilled.
I want to do your will.
You called me to be virtuous
and virtuous is what I have been
and will be.
For my mistakes could
and will not destroy my virtuosity.
It is these enemies
with their hatred and jealousy
that create thoughts that seek to destroy me.
Your perfect peace is what I need.
As I dine at the feast
you set before me, my enemies envy me,
but you protect me and help me
to see that You
trample out the path of vengeance
for me because you have anointed me.
Oh Lord, my Savior I implore Thee.
Endow me, but most of all restore me!