Stewardship: What is that all about?
I lost myself in so many ways in 2019. Then I allowed everyone and everything to completely drain me of my love, my sense of self, and my will to pursue my goals. What did this all teach me, well it taught me that I was not a good steward. I’m sure you are probably saying to yourself, how is that? Well, I wasn’t a good steward of my greatest asset, ME.
What I learned!
I learned it is totally okay to be selfish with myself. Everyone and everything does not deserve my time, attention or energy. People can be like parasites. They can seek only to gain and not to give and dare you to expect them to honor their promises to you. I found myself looking for me in others and frankly that was a BIG mistake. The fact of the matter is there is no one like me and everything I was searching for was within me.
Quickly, I learned that men would pretend to get close to me because they recognized I am the cream of the crop, but they knew that they really were not qualified to pursue me the way that I deserve to be pursued. This taught me to take the time to truly qualify those who desire to be apart of my life in any capacity, especially romantically.
Friendship has to be qualified in the same way. I’m learning more and more what I desire in friendship and really any relationship and that is reciprocity. Relationships in any form are supposed to be mutually beneficial. However, I kept encountering one-sided individuals. Then I had an epiphany, in 2020 I am raising the stakes and my standards. I had been settling in so many ways since 2016. It was time for me to take responsibility for my part in allowing unqualified people to enter my life and drain my energy and leave me heartbroken. I had not done my due diligence to guard my heart because I longed for the very love, commitment, friendship, and forever that I was willing to give.
Unfortunately, in all of the tricksters and fake friends I lent myself and my love to, I ended up empty. I had hit rock bottom, but that’s when I really began to hear the voice of God. He reminded me of who I am and whose I am. He reaffirmed my worth and my value. “Do you think these people would want to be attached to you if they did not see the greatness that you are”, He said. He told me, “the truth of your light causes them to see how unqualified they are to be apart of your life. You, my daughter, have greatness to pursue so do not allow the devil to steal your purpose by entertaining those who were never meant to be apart of the plan”.
The Shift that Happened.
Gaining the strength to pick up the pieces of my broken life and heart and place them in the hands of my creator to put them back together again was my greatest accomplishment at the end of 2019. Once I did that, I immediately remembered who I am. It is like the scales fell off of my eyes and I began to see the PRICELESS PRIZE that I am.
Regaining My Confidence.
The fact of the matter is I am a designer’s original; one of a kind; cut from a different cloth that is not made anymore and I am owning all of that. I am walking in so much confidence. That battle built me FAITH tough and I feel so good. I now understand the importance of self-stewardship. My 2020 word of the year is just that…STEWARDSHIP.
I am walking in so much confidence.
Now I am focusing on how I can practice good stewardship in the other areas of my life. I am getting my finances in order, my credit to a more than acceptable score, managing my health and fitness, and managing my time. Business ideas are now flowing freely again and I will conquer this year in every business I own.
My word of advice for you is simple. Do not lose yourself. You are your most important asset. Self-preservation is not selfish. Knowing your worth and being uncompromising on your standards is important. When you value you then others will. When you set the bar and people don’t meet it, then let them go. I’m not saying be cold and ridged; I’m saying be intentional and steadfast.
I love me and I know exactly how I want and need to be loved. I am an excellent friend and I know exactly what I want and deserve out of a friendship. Mirroring what I desire qualifies me to demand what I deserve. As a result, from this year forth, I am vetting all that wish to be attached to me and my destiny because frankly, everyone can’t go where I’m going.